Day 33 - Struggles (Week 5)

I'm struggling BIG time :(

It started as a red flag event that I didn't realise until it was right there. Then I was blindly swallowing my old excuses, justifying to myself that 'I have no other choice... I don't have time... This is more important....I'll just {insert un-healthy habit here}' Blah, blah BLAH.

So I did it :(  I went to THAT place... you know the one. I was running late to get to an appointment, and 'didn't have time' to eat a proper lunch. But I could have found the time, if I was more prepared, and organised & had acknowledged the red flag potential.

That was last Saturday.. now a week later, I'm in a major slump, and have been back not only a 2nd time.. but a 3rd as well. *shakes head*  I've even hidden the subsequent visits from my husband :(  I haven't been to the gym, and have done only 1 run on the treadmill, and 1 netball game. I've got a head cold thingy this week, but that is no reason to eat crap.

Then there was Sunday when I popped over to the IGA to get my husband a mixer for his drinks for while watching the Bathurst race, and I buy a packet of timtams.... What the HELL was I thinking????  I even recalled Mish saying 'are you kidding me??' in the Kitchen Makeover video, and yet I still bought them. I guess I just wasn't thinking. I thought I could 'get away with it', and I've since found out their calories and O.M.G :(

My resolve is in pieces, and I have to put it back together. I need to find my focus again. And I thought I was doing so well - I WAS doing well..  I was a tiny 100 grams off meeting my 1 mth goal, and now I have to fight to get back in the game.

My result for the Week 5 weigh-in?  ....I gained 1.1kg. I knew it would be bad after how much I ate.

So it's 14 Oct, Friday night, and this weekend I have another TWO red flag social events... *deep breaths*

I'm not feeling strong, and have made no plan of attack. I don't even know what I'm wearing! (lol)

I'm really annoyed with myself because if I'd stayed on track I would be over 5kg down, and it would be noticeable. Now I'm back to only 3.8kg down and feeling blah, mentally & physically.

I know I have to do something, change something to get my focus back. I'm going to re-commit to a new plan, and work hard to get back on track.

Watch this space....

Thanks for reading :)